I had a stroke a couple years ago at the age of 29. It has forever changed me. It is a scar on my brain and body. It is a part of me. I suppose I will never get true closure from the trauma until I __acknowledge__ that it has forever become a part of me. Our lives are composed of the good and bad parts. All are physiologically and neurologically manifested. We cannot completely eliminate them as we cannot reverse entropy. But we can make a peace with them. A bit like having a new scar on your cheek and looking at yourself every day in the mirror until you don't really notice it anymore. Both therapy and time can help. Allow life to take you on new journeys and then these will fill your thoughts, becoming more a part of you than the traumas that you're trying to move on from. I guess that's my take on it, at least. Self-compassion does a wonder as well. Hope you find closure, peace, direction <3