I'm so sorry for your loss.

I've been surrounded by substance abuse my entire life, and narrowly escaped it myself. Feel free to schedule a call with me, if you think talking to a stranger will help:

[1] https://calendly.com/taylor-town/30min

You may also want to talk to a professional:

[2] https://www.betterhelp.com

It's not specifically about grief, but The Anthropocene Reviewed is a collection of essays that have really helped me navigate my pursuit of happiness and meaning. It was published as both a podcast and a book:

[3] https://www.wnycstudios.org/podcasts/anthropocene-reviewed

[4] https://www.amazon.com/Anthropocene-Reviewed-Essays-Human-Ce...