Whatever benefits you think you're feeling when you're consuming alcohol, are actually the baseline if you live a non-alcoholic life. It makes itself relevant by making you feel worse the rest of the time, until you consume it. When you give it up and after a few months when your liver has healed, the buzz/happiness you felt while consuming alcohol becomes your normal again. You don't need it, and you never did. It's a poison of the mind and the body.