As a quiet gay nerd I'd love for there to be no war, no bullies. But unfortunately we live in a world where our species evolved from monkeys and we still often act like it. If my usually peaceful tribe needs weapons to defend itself when attacked then I'm all for it. But using those weapons to attack another for any reason other than defense is a nono in my books.
20 or so years ago, my degree's optionally-mandatory* industrial placement year had me interviewing at Lockheed Martin.
I didn't get it, and in retrospect, given what is now coming to light about UK misbehaviour in Iraq**, I'm glad I didn't.
Unfortunately, I don't know what to do about this, as you're correct about the world we live in.
* tax thing
** https://www.aljazeera.com/news/2025/5/12/uk-veterans-allege-...
Who is bombing civilians? Shelling cities with inaccurate old missiles? Which cities are destroyed to the ground?
Russian state is pure evil, even worse than Iran.
You may build tech that helps the good defenders defeat the forces of the stronger, evil attacker, but 5 years down the line, you may discover that same tech is now used to blow up hospitals and refugee convoys - and it doesn't take your country being on the wrong side of a war, it just takes the usual international politics.
Propaganda, and arresting dissenters, makes it difficult for the *average* Russian to realise anything is wrong.
But even in free nations, people like to think their soldiers are heroes rather than villains, and reports of crimes are covered up or brushed aside.
UK had a few million protest against the second Iraq war, and still didn't stop it. Do you think the percentage is higher or lower in Russia, with all its propaganda?
Worse, in the context of "picture myself working on something like this and sleeping well at night", consider sub-group modifiers: how many people in the UK resigned from defence companies due to agreement with the anti-Iraq-war protests?